My eyes..feel like bleeding and not rolling tears.

Soaring and missing the way that you call me and text me.

I know the past that will never come back to me which I will keep it as a memory.

No matter how hard I tried,you still came into my mind when I'm alone.Sometimes...

For now..what's in my mind is study and get as much as crossing as I could in the shortest time and to revise everything for going to the next sem.I dont wanna waste my time thinking bout you!

What's more important now is dating..dating the hospital,dating the books,dating the reports,dating the food court,dating the bed of mine,dating the car with sending to the mechanic to make sure all in good condition and of course..dating the machos in the ward :P.. sha la la la la la..

Today is the last day working out with the seniors with group 3/09 which they are all having sem break for two weeks next week onwards and means that I'm not going to do observation for the machos and hotties anymore..there will be another group joining us next week and seriously telling..thou is just a week..but the skills I learnt and they thought..it really feels like a family..a small and funky one.Haha..I miss Kak Nad the fitto,Kak Mas which makes everything goes easy,Crystal the haha and every other seniors that work out together.Lols..wish there's more chances to be with them..they are so kind and nice..trust me :)

Oh..just feeling like dating someone which keep on sticking to her bf and friends..ku dah jealous ni :((((

JACKLYN !

The Head and Mind.

I planned to bald my head.Mom ask me what's wrong with me.

I wanted to go out to fill up my stomach and my tyre.Mom said later cause its raining and there's no restaurant cook for dinner now out there.

I wanted to clean up my room but when I stepped in.There's just toilet and bed to go.Blank looking the table and floor which need to clean up and mess up all the time.
I wanted to do my reflective journal but in my mind,there's always tomorrow which will never arrive..

I wanted to sleep but I feel wanna eat first before sleeping and end up with biggy stomach filled up with winds on the next morning which always made me suffered.

I wanted to have more good and nice food but costly and rubbish food always I got made my days feel moan.

I want next week to be biase cause honeys and brother going to Thailand which I have to be in hospital posting for so not willing to.Its year end sale and shopping time my babes! but I have to stay in hospital..see what am I going to wear for chinese new year... / . \

I hope no events and celebration coming up so everything goes normal.

Bull shyts !

The 18th.

How's the first day of 18th you passed?

Mushi Hello?! I passed it in hospital and yet doing sponging and changing linen for the patient.Yeah,nampak semua. :P.People usually says that nurse is a dirty job,cleaning and spanning the shyts and urine for the patient.But think back if there's no nurse?Touch shoot to say that if one day you had accident/koma/and you couldnt move at all;couldnt bath,eat,walk,move and all the others that people facing nowadays?Who would want to care and serve them?A playrole of nurse right?

I noticed how tired I am this morning wake up at 5.30*already late cause I suppose to go out at 6*and being a lazy bumpo thinking negative-o wanna quit from nursing.After two days posting in hospital being with Ms.Azila,I like her being my Clinical Instructor.Yet then yesterday night she told us that this morning Pn.Ana going to be with us and we are going to be introduced to the patient.I was so afraid of cause I dont know what to do.*that's for people like me cause I havent prepared yet.*lols.After breaking into 3 groups,Zilah and Me followed our senior..Kak Mas :)..she's a nice senior..well..among the seniors in this posting week,all are friendly !

Throughout the day with them,I feel so wanna continue and work harder for it.Thanks to my senior and CI which made me feels being a nurse is a really noble thing.I admit that when I couldnt stand the smell when I go into the room.But then slowly when things came by that we have to do it for our goals.Its worth to have this experience and knowledge.Touch shoot to say how if one day my hubby got that?Ngek ngek..dont be shock.I'm still single but N/A..

Medical terms are killing me.Everytime passing report I couldnt jot down and understand what are they passing and the most important.I think I will understand soon.Haha..everything that is killing is going on getting tougher.

Everything when is almost success and done,something will happened when it comes.Haha..funny or not?

You can get 1901 hot dogs in my posting place which is..ehem ehem SIME DARBY MEDICAL CENTRE SUBANG JAYA.haha..brother said its nice only when you eat there.and and and..the south tower food court cheap like no joke.The first day I ate..no no no..the first in my life time,without any extra tax..they charged only 0.95cents for my dinner..veggies with rice.Weyh..the amount of rice and veggies is half mountain and the rice is more than you thought.One box of rice with a big drumstick and veggie only cost 2.40..hello..where to get so cheap food?Yet quite clean and nice also..just that the fussy me dont know whether can stand eating the same food everyday or not.haha.

Talking bout my birthday,thanks for the dears,babes,honeys,sugar pie and sweeties that sent messages and blessings through facebook,myspace and sms to me.Frankly telling,its out of my expectation that I will receive that much of messages.Ok.It might be not much but its just out of my expectation.Thou there are some late wishes but still there's a blessing for me ;)

I like the feelings when the phone appears thou just a happy birthday.Yes,thou I didnt celebrated like others and yet pass my day in hospital.Dad still wanted to buy me a cake,to pass my birthday.We went Australian Confectionary in Petaling Jaya to buy Marble Cheese Cake in the morning and yet only blew the candle at night when I was eating my porridge for supper.Haha..Its just a small celebration and end after singing birthday song.But I can feel the warmth and care that honeys and brothers are giving.Not forgetting my birthday and honestly telling.I didnt mind that how I pass my birthday this year..as long as family get along together.That's enough for me.They are the SDPVIP..Super Duper Precious Very Important* not Irritating *People.Yes I mean it =D

That's all I wanted to say.
A very sincere thank you to all that wished me and even calling and singing birthday song to me.

A very precious thanks to family that waited for me and blow a piece of cake just for me.

and what's more than appreciating you all in my life? Thank You.

21 might having a birthday party.Oh..remember..time flies..Rock On. !

All are invited if there is.Hee

=D

Ushhh..I'm awake.

Biase la every morning wake up by 8 to drink medicine..but today slighty different..no no..is today onwards.I'm very nervous and trying to calm down cause afternoon I'll be going to posting in hospital which made me leg crossing hands and vice versa.Hiica..I dont know what time should I get prepared,what time should I go out,What time should I have my lunch and what I suppose to do.I'm afraid that later out I forgot to bring stuffs.I havent prepared to be posting in the hospital.Can I run away now?Hands are shaking and getting hungrier when I think of it. =/////

Yesterday night went Sungai Wang with honeys and had dinner in there as well.Lols.The fussy me doesnt want to eat in sungai wang and we went out to hunt for others food.The sense of mine brought us to Dragon View in Jalan Alor.Its 24 hours and their food.Yummy..I'm hungry after 2 hours.Lols.Love the abalone porridge and Kampung Fried Rice :)

Thumbs Up..

AHHHH!!! HUNGRY!!!