working hard on it .

Its the fourth day of sem 5 , things goes as usual ,

introduction ,assignments , presentations , preparations for formative i and ii ,

and have to be prepared for LJM but still not prepare yet , a lot more knowledge to gain from books , nets , newspaper , and history of others. 

At the same time , I would not want to get stucked on the chair by facing my notes and lappie for almost 3/4 of my time cause would not want to be stressed up and miss out all the funs with families , but will limit myself as I promised to grow to be more mature :)

I've got lots of fun i think for these coming months , dad's birthday celebration , damansara to meet master jin bodhi on the sunday , gathering for secondary friends , extra classes on saturdays , aunt's birthday , diwali and bringing forward the sem break as diwali going to be enjoy for one week !

Planned to go Sibu to visit Aunt Mina and Calistus but see how things go on , and its like 4 days did not contact with him . Pending case , wanna go for shopping and learning the others culture , at the same time , wish to visit hometown , Hadyai , Thailand again , never been boring to there . Home sweet home :)

For November if not mistaken , in the schedule , I will be going to TR ; Tanjung Rambutan in Ipoh for 2 weeks , to be having clinical practice and as well to TUN HUSSEIN ONN eye specialist . This sem there's 2 more places for us to exposed and never thought that I could move forward to this sem , it really surprised me , for all the hardwork , nightmares and panda eyes that screwed me up . It came out with a good output , thou was not the best but I accepted it , caused I did my best , hee ~ oopssy.

See how things go on , really hope to go back for Yoga classes , Therapeutic treatment , spa and sauna , oh gosh , that really made me wanna go now !

More and more to enjoy ,

November its a 2 weeks leave from Klang and Im very glad that the Broer's are coming to MALAYSIA on december , stressed and enjoy and enjoy ! Woohoo <3 ++

That's the plan at the moment , and at the moment , Im ASS-ing my ASSignments :)

Results of all

To have faith I wanted for all these while ,

 to believe everything will come true with all the efforts I've put on .

No matter what's the outcome ,

 I , willing to accept for the sake I have done .

 In either good or bad , I am strong enough to handle .

Things that are done thou its a bit disappointed with the results and output ,

But , I have no regrets with it .

To either let go the love that Im wishing for ,

It had just passed by around me ,

Left a lil memories between us that has been for few months .

 Left , Leaved .

2 , combined .

Yes and No .

Scratched and Be Tough to handle .

 

the most beautiful moments , it could be keep in the heart , it could be in your mind all the time 

but picture always speaks the word in me ,

photographing never fail to shows <3

credits to kabut , for the snap shots !

It nearly.

I couldnt accept , at the moment when you asked.

these days arent easy for me , 

I struggled and be strong ,

not to drop any tears for almost everything ,

being strong to be happy , cheer and laughs all the time ,

to grow and be more independent to and explore more ,

to have more people around and to build more relationship .

I guess that helps to in what happened today .

I was asked by my clinical instructor whether immitating others clinical instructor signature for my cross book . 

At the moment onwards , I was not surprised at all until when I did explain and told her the whole story and she did replied me saying that she clarified with the one who sign my cross book telling that she did not sign for me at all . Body , mind and soul , north south east west , I dont know where it went . Its a big issue for me , cause Ive been chasing these and that for so long and this is what I get . 

but at last , clarified , she refreshed and recalled back when did she sign for me . 

I know , thou this clarified today , but doesnt mean that wont happen again . 

It nearly made me cry out .
I lost myself .

but to promise and remind myself , 

I will be strong !

that keeps me moving on .

你喜歡嗎

其實有沒有人陪真的那麼重要嗎？

逃

我，喜歡逃避，因為我不喜歡面對事實，

事實很殘酷，很令人傷心，令人痛苦，令人悲哀。

我不喜歡面對。

情願活在自己的世界，讓一切完美，快了痛快，遠離傷心的事實。

有時候不顧一切的為身邊的人奮鬥，努力，容忍，不過一切都有限度。

人不珍惜，何苦執著。

我很累，真的很累，累得哭的力氣也沒了。

我不要，不要看見殘酷的真實，

其實活着也不是很快了。

對家人的容忍，不曾珍惜。

對愛情，別想了，我玩不起。

對友情，真心朋友，有幾個？

告訴我活着的意義？隨你答，不過請做得到才說。

我，不在乎人家怎樣看我，只在乎我怎樣的過，

不過說真的，人生真的很悶。

Its a beautiful day but I cant see it.

laughing and smiling like there's nothing happened ,

inside the heart the tears could really speaks my word,

I aint yours cause you aint mine,

I couldnt speak out any to you cause I know its not worthwhile and its meaningless.

The day its beautiful but I just cant see it through.

Do you ?

war

I just lose in the war , it does not brings me down .

I m s t r o n g , I k n o w I c a n g o t h r o u g h t h i s p a i n.

I just have to cry for a night and it will be alright in the next morning .

I m j u s t t h o u g h e n o u g h t o h a n d l e t h i s .

I think I will go insane if I kept on feeling right and left

I t s j u s t s o h a r d t o c o n t r o l a n d f o r g e t.

I told my self not to expect too high and now I fell deep .

When Its Friday .

Holla ! Its friday night :)

Just woke up not long after class and had a short walk with sugar mama in giant .

I just couldnt stop thinking and laughing about last night ,

about one plus imma woke up and looking at the time , it was only 1.19am. Imma roll on the bed and couldnt sleep until 2 plus , Imma had weird dreams and haha ! Imma fell from the bed , this was the first time after so long which everytime almost fall. The butt was pain and no joke , its painful . what a night for imma .
The brother from next room told me this afternoon he thought was pigeon fell on the roof top and it was actually his sis fell from bed  ! this joke is killing me !!

And like usual imma suppose to wake for 4 plus and after waking up imma realised it was 5 plus and imma was freaking sleepy .After preparing and almost going to college , it started to rain heavily , and so bad the brother dont even want to offer an umbrella to send me to the car ,pretending to sleep at that time , you are so bad my brother ! garrrrrrr..

Got stucked in the jam after half an hour , received a message from cheng lai and told that dont have to rush as our time table changed.

Slowly driving and I was stucked for another half an hour , a journey that suppose to be reached in 25-30 minutes it doubles up ! The most scary thing was when once I entered the class my tutor was in , stunted me , looking her smiling and went into toilet :) luckily I did not get any morning tutorial from her .

Next week stuffed with presentation and papers , hopefully pass all and managed to overcome the questions with wisdom , oh gosh .

There will be a week of sem break , yes its sem break and its a week after a 10 weeks studying block I tremendously urge for that :)

I promised I am going to prepare nicely for my posting cause I really dont wanna get any stress and sadness in . :D

Anyhoos , there's something in my mind still worrying now , hopefully tomorrow can solve it and really get an answer with confident .

ahhhhhhhh ! :)

Pa.

Kaiye,he's in front of me now.Of course Im in Kaima's house suppose to be studying and reading notes for this week formative but chatting,surfing the net and thinking of shopping just interrupting my focus on studies.

Hehe.

Just before I came here,I drove to Chi Liung Garden to buy some tarts from Monkee as a tea break for kaima and mommy,where a syaitan driving milky white myvi and passed by me,i dont know how to describe that sound that made my side mirror dropped and fly the monster away. Syaitan BETOL !

Wasting time to drive to the accessories shop and fixing a new one.I was one hour late to be here.

Looking at kaiye lying on the chair and resting,couldnt move around not even standing really made my heart aches,lil red notto ants biting his wound and fingers but he has no strenght or even sensation to feel the pain,the pain not only in his skin,but also in our hearts ; kaima have to do everything and cleaning him up and taking care the two sayangs in the house was really tiring .

Baby Raymond already learnt to walk and climb,now he used to hold my hands and walk to the door wanted to go shopping and outings,and Baby Keanu neck just nice to be stable and learning to watch cartoons ! :)

Happy Doodlee-Doo.

Both of them are just two lovely sayangs

Anyhoos,dont be surprise why am I online now in here,fb and also msn cause today is a replacement of holiday for attending saturday class and you know its so great cause tomorrow is wesak !

by the way I woke up as early as 4 plus like usual :)