Keys to Life

we end everything,relationshyts,birdshyts,friendshyts,boatshyts and your crap shyts!
well I have to say falling in love with you was really happy,If we didnt get together I guess you would be the most special guy walking into my life.You changed for so sudden,you broke your promises,I thought I lost the key to your door,you changed the door without telling any words,you need another key,I cant do anything anymore..life has to go on..sometimes I really thought,what you want?what you need?what is love?what is promises?why betray?why let go?why not hold on?Love is just a fairy tale,you could imagine how perfect and how happy you are in your dreams..but in real life,you never knows what's going to happen?either to be happy or unhappy?smiling everyday or crying everyday?This is seriously nothing related to me anymore..I experienced once before..loves always failed in my life,and the second you?You made love to be numb in my life..You come and go so easy..I'm not a touch and go lane,I dont like your express way to pass in my life..If I have another chance,I wish everything goes back to the past,but not knowing you,not to fall in love with you..perhaps if that happens,I had become the most richest person in the world..nothing is impossible..I heard this word from a lots of people,but something really impossible that could time turn back?If it is a machine that could turn time back..GET ME ONE PLEASE! I miss my relatives and family members who had passed away! I miss ah ma,I miss her teaching how to fold a cup,how I go to her room and bringing her sweets..I miss Aunt Pauline,I miss her to morning lovely porridge since I stayed once in her house,I miss 5 chek gong,I miss his Old MacDonald house and his smiling face just like grandpa,I miss Stella Ch'ng,she's forever Kwang Hua KRS people,she died when she's 15 suffering from denggue..Why?Why god wanted to take them from my life?There so much that I couldnt mention it at all..I will be crying so badly posting this blog..I dont want my parents or any family members back to the god..I want them to stay with me..Why not everything to be fair?God's the director and we people have to be actor and actress?But something I know that is God doesnt create people to be perfect..that's the only "fair" thing in world I guess..MRS.LIM's son,such a genius..he doesnt go to school since he's form 2,he finished he's piano grades in only 2 years,his mom print papers for him to do at home and he's taking A levels exam without going to school..see how smart he is..he wish to perform in S'pore but he couldnt cause he's having health problem..he couldnt get hurt,he's mom have to give injection to him monthly..god doesnt create perfect..he have this but he couldnt have that..what to say?Is life easy or hard?Just how you think I guess..