What's On

I dont know what's going on between eldest brother;Jean with me..

Since after the first time I came back,he was showing the "dont like" as what we called it in hokkien..- beh song - face to me..and everytime I came back from camp for hols or MC..he will be like "why are you back again" face..he's being irritating and purposingly knocked me out! I couldnt stand those faces and pretending like he's the sheep I'm the wolf in front of my HONEYS!

Mom and I are not getting as close as we used to..I know she wants me to be independent and change my stick to home attitude..I'm doing my best..I'm trying and learning..I got so frustrated today! The internet connection couldnt connect properly to the laptop for few days and getting worser..I couldnt even online even thou I formatted disk drive D.Jean wouldnt be helping me either telling me what to do for that prob,I bet he wont! He's sick of seeing me if I'm using the new one as he can and I'm not..for GOD knows he doesnt like seeing me using something nice.*XXXX*

All I wanted to do is upload the 600+ photos..is that so hard?Jean was in Alan's room sleeping and Liv got no point only use the living room one what! Not till an hour that fella came by and ask.."how long you still want to use" of course I answered I DONT KNOW!..his faces changed again and scolding.."what you meant by you dont know"..

*The photos are uploading..how should I know* -Liv wondering..

There he goes..closing and banging the door..

After few minutes..Jean opened the door and showing the faces again..I was very uncomfortable with his attitude that he treat to a sis and I answered back with some kind of sentences..

'This is my home,a place for me to stay..but only to stay,I couldnt use the things in the house..cause its not belongs to me'Mom always angry if I say something like that..BUT THIS IS TRUE!

Jean thinks I'm not qualified to use things that are expensive or high tech things cause I'm only a disaster and a evil devil monster at home..FUCK YOU!

I went to room angrily and banging the door..Mom was asking what happened..

GAHHH!! That SHEEP damn politely telling that he's only asking how long the WOLF going to use internet and the WOLF get angry sudden and making herself uncomfortable..

*deep breathing*....and....WHAT THE DICK CRAPS IS THAT SHEEP TALKING ABOUT!SO FAKE!BIG LIAR!PRETENDERRRR!!!!

For my honeys favour..they ask me to tolerate with my brothers and make things goes easy..dont argue with them or fight back for small matter..the problem now is..THE SHEEP IS SO FAKE! If..I really meant it..IF my parents realised it,everyday..IF I go for breakfast with honeys..that SHEEP wouldnt follow and IF I didnt..then the SHEEP will follow..as well as dinner time..except for today and friday cause we're going to eat in temple for dinner..

Why brothers and sister turned into the enemies are staying together..we are like worse than enemies..I'm really clueless..I wouldnt dare talk to mom cause the SHEEP takes all the place in mom's heart..I miss mom..staying together but feels like far apart..talking to her,sharing with her,giving me advice..no longer staying together anymore..I'm moving to hostel hopefully I can survive and use to it..Its 3am now but still not tired..Threw my cellphone on the floor after couldnt stand that SHEEP attitude and now have to borrow it from Alan..I dont feel like coming back immedietly after having check up in clinic pandamaran for my college health report..and for my cleverness..I didnt save my kem's friends phone number in sim card..*finger crossed* I hope they will text me or call me between these few days so I could save it..