In pain

being very sad

acting very strange

being very pain

acting very lazy

dont want to think much

but things coming after me.

being very denial

thinking very negative

nothing bout relationship

but everything bout studies.

how weird it could be

how hard it will be

how tough it will be

that people let you be

thinking and hearing the sounds and creeping that made you this

that you wont feel free

the bang that heard last week

the scar that made it me

what and where

why and when

the double u that confuse you

the sadness that kept in heart

made my life more tough

but where to spread it out

no one understands but made me yellow

I'm blue and purple

like cursing the berries into juices and you will see me spreading into germs.

I'm not sepet but the action and words that hurts wants me to be sepet.

I know is stiffed but nothing could relief.

Everything to be blame,and put all the blame on me.

Christmas eve? Celebrated sleeping till the next morning

Christmas? Rushing eating

After christmas? Realised that santa didnt came.

New Year? New challenge.New Patients.

Look back what I did? Nothing great

Look back what I done? Created problems

Look back what I've got? Nonsense

Look back what I've gain ? stress and disappoint

Look back what for? to create more sadness

What for to have friends in life? To betray and use of

What for wants friends to be in life? I dont know.

What for to live? Ask god

to rely? better to deny

to reuse ? better to refuse

to regain ? better you faint