Why Am I Still Alive?

good morning and this is what happened yesterday morning while on my way to hospital for posting.

A car came from behind and didnt manage to break in time and bang me.

Ouch,why am I still alive I was thinking.How good it is if I'm away.At least bro will be happy no one being so annoyed at home with him,right?

Yesterday morning after the car bang me,I was totally lost because my spinal cord was pain and my specs flung away.The first thing I did was finding my specs and opened up my door.The driver came and ask me"kenape you break?" HELLO ?!!

I didnt answer him or care about him,remembered dad told me anything call him first and that's the first thing I did.After reporting for not able to attend my posting I went and talk to him.Sorry sir,because front is jam and everyone is queing that's why I break !

After talking to him a girl came to me and I ask..did I knock you miss..she said yes..OOh shiat.

I scratched her car through side and alhamdulilah she's fine.

My neck is stiffed now and couldnt move when I'm lying down.In short,it couldnt turn but only looking into front.Spinal cord is sore now. :( yaiksss.

Mom did guasa and cupping for me but it doesnt really works and this morning when I woke up.My hand joints suffering from lenguh lenguh.Thanks to you sir.I know you hurt your chest.I'm trying hard to regain my health and body functions now you made me have to work more harder.Why dont you just choke me and let me die?!

I missed "someone" so badly and I know I will get scold from "someone" but still went and visit "someone" till I finally know the answer why all these happened.Padan muke me..all is my fault,I am the one who caused everything and sorry "someone" that I had badly disappoint you.I thought I keep in heart and mind what you had told me but my stubborness had contribute me into trouble and thank you for forgiving me.I wont make that mistake and I promised to think twice and thrice before anything.Also I will protect and keep my self safe and well.I know you are trying to help me and make me a better person in life.I hope you dont walk away from my life.

<3

My car now is in the OT room and dad said at least 3 weeks to beautify it back.

Oh and it might take longer than that.

So temporary I will be driving Uncle's car and THANK YOU!

I'm still worried bout my neck because its really hurtful and I cried not because of accident and injuries.

Its because I disappointed people that sayangs me.Sincerely apologising,I'm SORRY!

Went and did police report.

How many times in a year I have to attend there?

I dont like you know?!

Tomorrow results are coming out."someone" ask what you want to treat me eat.

I masak for you la :)

I know how badly taste my food is.But let me try.I promised to cook it sincerely and washed everything clean.

=D