Life is a dream walking, death is going home.

I'm full..really really full..

bloated..ouch..

Thighs are getting bigger and the butt..omg..i know its expanding

Should go on a diet like what I've said before..but non of a day that I'm dieting.

I'm really really upset bout the tummy had poped out and yerrr..I think I'm like an apple plus a pear now..

this week suppose to be still on sem break but what we've got? Have to back to the college and hear those craps and shyts which change our timetable and giving us stress more and more..

Thou first sem is over but I still couldnt manage to get used to what I'm in now..

I'm trying very hard..Since after accident..I had not being happy from that day on..

due to body condition and as for your so thank you and kindness which you bang me so hard..I almost paralysed I couldnt sleep proper for 3 weeks.THANK YOU i wish you choke and die because you didnt bang me straight away to HELL that made me so suffer now !

Dont worry..I think positively now..

No matter how hard it is I will still go on with happily and I hope really goes well because my neck is fucking stiffed now and I couldnt really control my emotion.So rasa wanna cry after the accident and nothings go smooth after that.Frankly telling I did think of commit suicide in first place..oh no..which comes after that..no ones there for me to talk to..why? Because I always have grandmother stories to tell..which scares everyone away.

I laugh and laugh to cover my tears but inside the room..You know I wont be happy alone..

Now? Studies started..back to concentration and tell me how to diet and burn off the extra fats without stress..

Oohh--uhhh..I really wish to cry now..

Planned to go mid valley this sunday and thank you..I have tons of assignments have to finish and this is only the first weekk..give me reasons not to cry more :(

will I be down with anorexia one day?

:(((