Bood

Eeee ~ so sleepy..the whole week sleepless night and only sleeps when break time..I found myself..found where? Lost in somewhere but still couldnt find a way out? Due to my laziness? or blamming bout the others and faults..naive and childish..I hope that I could recover before I regret for another thrillions times..

I didnt open my book or even my bag on the weekends to revise back what I have studied for the week and on the weekdays..What I did? Sleep,Eat and thinking where to slack and shop for the self happiness..so what I got now? Nothing benefits and thank you there's gonna be lots of ASS-ignments and studies to do for the FORMATIVE II..and my oh my..how do you expect me to finish it and the internet is broke down in the house? Again,I'm blamming on stuffs that influencing me to finish my work..

I need advices? spoken many times but I think my brain cells dead..I couldnt absord and really think what to do..

" Tiger "..I know I'm gonna disappoint which you put so much effort on me..helping me and tolerating with me..I know you know what I'm thinking and doing..I know I didnt proceed what I've said and ishh..I have nuf said for what I blame on..so fed up telling so much non sense and bull shyts but I did not have motivation for any action with what I'm not satisfied for..

May be Alan is right..I just know how to ask why and how..but I do not know how to solve problems but just waiting answer..always over my own limits..Mom told not to think too much and I dont know why the harder I push myself the narrow way I will go..

gahh..Things coming on continously but I couldnt manage to handle properly..just a student nurse..think what am I going to be in future..bla bla bla..

what's wrong with my brain..lost all the positive brain cells? somewhere the nerve not connected accordingly? melatonin hormone? pineal gland not functioning well? controlled by hormones and body take over?

seeeeeeee...excuses!!