Febrile.

I guess I'm a person who like to start the blog with..I DONT KNOW WHY..

yes and I dont know why..is it like the others said? The world is small..I have the same thought as her and not only the first time and its like almost the time.Things happened almost the same to me and to her at the same time or in a close time.Oops!

I cant settle things down calmly and successfully till I failed desperately.

I did things reversely like what I always promised myself and finally I put myself into trouble..things are coming after and I have no immune to fight back anymore.I've lost my Central Nervous System to control myself and I made the hormones changed.such a BIG NOOB !

Bongu Bongu and restless nights...finally I'm in the FEBRILE world.Smelling the bongu bongu in the refrigerator made me wants to crave more but...I'm not allowed!

Looking myself in the mirror..who I am? I'm not familiar with myself..how I am? getting sick and worsen the condition day by day..I'm not loving and pampering myself anymore ; lying to meself to believe that everything will be alright as the days goes by..but..with the lies and unsincerly heart..I'm far away from my dreams and I'm feeling far away when I'm down..to cheer up is not easily like last time..things changed or I changed?

I dont want to miss things before I regret..only having a mouth to complaining this and that but no actions for me to achieve things wanted to be and happily?