Life is a dream walking, death is going home.

I'm tired..really really tired of being myself..
tired of achieving the goals..
tired of fighting for things I want
tired of being patient to everything..

tired of smiling to things that I dont want to face
tired of seing things that I dont want to see
tired of looking myself in the mirror
I want to cry,I dont want to keep the sadness..but where can I share?
I push myself too hard? But people dont think so,what people see is only the other side..

like JACKY said..when you do things right..nobody will remember..once you did wrong..is wrong also when you breath..

I dont feel any love from anyone now ; family,friends,god and yaddi dadadadadada..

I dont feel like having any fun cause the i'm not really enjoying or happy..

I know Tiger Papa is doing things to make me feel better and not scolding me..but I couldnt figure and think of anything cause he did not talk to me since after I recover from sick.

I'm tired hearing people mumbling the nonsense and I wish there were someone accidently letting me drinking parasquat so I can escape from here and there.

I feel like eating humans and being cold blooded..I dont know why I have this feelings but I dont know..I really dont know if one day I really do that.OH,there's plenty of rude words in my brain and I wish to spilt it all out !

I wish to scream,I wish to let go everything,its so pain keeping in the heart.I dont want this,I really dont want it..what can make me goes happy again?